haunted light at the beacon
UNDER THE SIGN OF MERCURY
With These Yellow Candles
::: Invoking Again the Candle Lich :::
if all draculas are a reconstitution of memories of dracula & the Shards of Dracula Memory from the way time has splintered into rocks their foregoing sisters,
then i too reconstitute anew with each vision
for this is a Benediction
to one broken into parts
to see New Birth again & gain Strength,
like drinking the Blood,
as we are here offered New Blood.
effervescent fruit soda water mingling with the smell of a server closet, a room with no windows. a slight muggy warmth makes you drowsy. when you wake up there is no one around, so you swirl in an office chair, and there is nothing to do but stare at the internet, which is still boring but strange because you are alone in this office on a computer that is not yours. the silent office complex is probably haunted, but it…
somber cryptically walking the depopped cs map industrial power station, heavy with its own remoteness, loneliness, frozen in time and no longer pulsing with an animating drone. bright concrete and bleach blue emptiness stretch from grass to desert. twilight blue and walls of rain elsewhere devour the earth, voiding, blanking it. but they don't come here. this place persists. metal nests high above concrete plains.
there is no one here. you can sit with your legs hanging from the metal…
pause the tape & become de-faced, disconnect self from the image that anchors it. face/less in liminal suspension. less stuff of you, like a fast fwd decomposition, dissolving into ??? i can cover, obscure my face, but it waits beneath like a stalking presence in a distant room. do not pull me back. no more self. no more being. let me sink. let me drown. but the eyes, my eyes, they won't stop seeing me, i cannot decipher their meaning. something in them shifts, almost imperceptibly. something in me breaks, i crumple. i keep going back.
Sixty in September: 10/60
There are so many things to be fascinated by in this beautiful, wild movie, but two things really stick out to me. Obayashi talks about them in the interview on the Criterion materials:
One is the war and the atomic bombings. Obayashi is originally from Hiroshima. He says, quietly and candidly, that most his friends didn't survive the bombings, as a child. The second is Obayashi's sense of how children view and experience the world. He…