Letterboxd — Your life in film

When I was 5 years old, I convinced myself I was born to write and publish novels. And until my early 30s, I tortured myself with the idea that I was incomplete, that my life was meaningless, until I'd done it.

Then someone I knew passed away suddenly from pancreatic cancer. In the shock and aftermath I decided I had better get on with it. So I wrote half a novel. Then Trump got elected, my mental health tanked, and…

"If you see something out of the ordinary, something besides me and Sartorius, try not to lose your head."

"What would I see?"

"I don't know, that sort of depends on you."

I'm so completely ruined. I cant think straight. My search for my all time favorite director may officially be over. During my journey into Andrei Tarkovsky's work, hes proved with Stalker and now Solaris that no other director I've seen can use the language of cinema to communicate…

we drove 2 hours from LA to san diego just to see Tenet! At The Drive-In then spent about 75% of the trip home complaining about basically every aspect.

it’s a puzzle box with no reward or sense of satisfaction. i enjoy being challenged by complex films when they proffer some sort of emotional truth, but Tenet is all logos and no pathos — the only time any character exhibited any remotely mortal quality was when robert pattinson got sleepy…

It's that disappointment you feel when you wake up in the morning. Not because you need to wake up for work, or the countless other seemingly trivial things you need to accomplish, but the disappointment you feel that you're still alive another day. It's a strange sensation, really. A hopelessness so deep, so unbelievably exhausting, that it's managed to chip away at everything that once made you, you. You begin to wonder at what point you lost that part of…